and feel cheered. here's hoping anyway. i'm in a serious belly bending chest thumping teeth clenching thought looping sighs unending state of late. so full of a nameless anxiety i can hardly believe it. feel like i'm about to literally burst into tears or verbal lashings at any moment and i'm trying with all my might to figure out what it is i need to do to settle down. all of my usuals aren't doing much to help (music, vino, pretty things, deep breaths, yummy foods, chatter)... maybe i'm just winding up and will naturally wind down. i dunno. we'll see.